I haven’t spent a lot of time writing on my blog! ACCCKKK! I have had a really cool past few weeks and I am ready to burst with juicy ideas and stories! First off, I was lucky enough to go to a seminar this weekend (GateCommunity for Global Transformation) and I have never been equally as excited on my WAY to something as well as coming BACK from it. I knew it would be amazing. For example, I am much more excited going TO a restaurant. I am much more excited when I LEAVE the grocery store. I get excited on my WAY to get a pap smear because I love them. Leaving the Gyno makes me tear up with sadness, ya know? You get it. So this seminar was around 17 hours long and included speakers like Eckhart Tolle, Dara Marks, Jean Houston, philosophers, writers, directors, doctors, and (drum roll) Jim Carrey. JIM CARREY!!!!! JJJJIIIIIMMMMMM CAAAARRRRRRRRREEEYYY!!! Holy shit, I couldn’t believe that much my favorite comedian supports and loves my favorite author in the world, ECKHART TOLLE! The real shocker was getting there at 8 in the morning and being able to sit for 17 hours straight and not pass out. The night before I got food poisoning, which sucked for so many reasons, but my main concern was that I was running on low w. a 70% chance of shitting my pants. Turns out, I didn’t shit my pants until today. Anyways, the point is, this seminar was SO INSPIRING. It reconfirmed everything I am trying to do in Hollywood and everything I believe in. It was so amazing to have hundreds of people around me who feel the same way about media, entertainment, and tv/film. Hollywood has likeminded people and its comforting to know that all the people there on Saturday want what I want: To enlighten others and legally purchase midgets.
Jim Carrey, as hilarious as he is, is also obese and racist. Ok, no, I lied. He isn’t really hilarious. Ok, ok, ok. He is incredibly incredible and he really inspires me as a comedian. He has this other side to him that I want to share with EVERYONE! He walked into the room Saturday and LIT IT UP. His energy and life was radiating on all of us and, believe it or not, my nipple got hard. He is funny, compassionate, endearing, spontaneous, fearless, and inspiring. He wasn’t just born with a life free of drama and pain though, lets get real. He is the way he is because he has worked on himself. He has been through struggles. He is in fact, partially human, contrary to prior belief. He is actually incredible because he has taken those struggles and used them to become a better person and grow from. What we as a society do is usually blame externalities for the circumstances that appear as conflict in our lives. Rarely do we take responsibility for bad situations that take place because of the choices we have made. We hardly even question all the choices we have made that led us up to a crashing point, and I think that is because it is hard to accept ourselves truthfully. Why is it so hard to take responsibility for ourselves and what happens in our life? Why must we blame others? This happens when we aren’t living life from our hearts. We aren’t loving life because we truly aren’t loving ourselves. How hard is that to admit? REALLY friggin hard!!! I will look for anything sometimes to justify my thoughts that ultimately make me feel like poo. Repetitive thought patterns are a BITCH, and trying to break them is like trying to perfect a landing strip. That pity party shit though is living in FEAR! How often do we teach others (and especially kids) the importance of loving themselves? Or embracing creativity? And individuality? .. not enough! Since when have we been, as society, SO BLIND and programmed into living life totally in content with our knowledge? No QUESTIONS about anything we have internalized or a passion for truth and understanding in the world. It blows my mind the more I realize how lucky I am to live the life I do. I TRY really hard, and I am noooowhere close to being perfect, but I TRY. It’s effort every single day. It’s being consciously aware of what you do and why, it’s opening your heart and being gentle with yourself, and most importantly it is being honest with yourself. We are all so lucky, so different, so special, and so capable of being the most we can be. For me, trying to be “perfect” became a pointless effort and as unattractive as an aged human testicle. Then I realized “perfect”, if it existed, is what is already inside of all of us. Only we ourselves can bring that incredible person to the surface, and that means getting to know what our heart really wants instead of what we have conditioned it to want. That takes courage. The hardest part is finding that in our selves and realizing self-love is the most important thing in life if we want to actually live it. I like to say, “Fall in love with yourself and then make love to life.” I still like to say that. I think I will always like to say that. Well, probably because I am single. Anyways, lets love us, be there for us, and when there is a problem around us that affects us, lets look inside of us instead. Don’t judge yourself or be too hard on yourself. Instead accept yourself, and then touch yourself. Adios!
I will post some people/sites/info that made me sit back and think, plus inspired me so much to the point where I want to share it with everyone. GET INSPIRED PEOPLE! Andddd (drum roll) love yourself <3 Xoxoxo
